Prelude
but i am only small
nothing really to look at
nothing really important at all
but i am only seven
not yet able to decide
not yet able to think suicide
yet there hides in the dark
something scary
something tearing me apart
i want to scream for help
but i am only small
and my presence can't be felt
mommy
daddy
please remember me
mommy
daddy
please just notice me.....
Alone
alone in my room
alone in my room
my castle
my tomb
alone in my room
where will i be going?
not outside
no, no, not out there
with their screaming and fighting
drinking and crying
no, i won't go out there
alone in my room
alone in my room
my castle
my tomb
where will i be going?
in my mind i'll fly away
to a land of dreams and play
to a world where i am alive
to a world with color and laughter
where i make the rules.....
Andrews World
no rules
no rules
no parents to remind me
no parents to hide me
no rules
no rules
i can run, i can play
i can dream of things all day
i can laugh, i can yell
i can
what's that?
a nasty bug!
there are no nasty things in my world!
smash!
hey, that felt good.....
crush them
smash them
with my magnifying glass
i can watch their insides burn
stupid little bugs
look, see them run
now something is frightened by me
pull their wings
watch them scurry
watch them squirm
yes, something is afraid of me
hello kitty!
soft and playful, you are to me
you purr and crawl around for me
pretty kitty
you're so nice to me
i wonder
i wonder
i wonder pretty kitty
what makes you purr.....
Andrew Fights Back
why do they laugh at me?
the other children i see
they call me names
"hey, stupid!"
make fun of my clothes
"nice shoes, did they hand them out at the shelter?"
they push me down
and knock me around
it's just like being home.....
i can't take it any more!
i felt my hand curl and tighten
he's not so tough
soft and squishy
i can smash him too!
punch!
hey, that felt good.....
The Voice
lying in my bed asleep one night
something woke me with a fright
a voice behind my closet door
a voice
a voice calling me, but what i know not for
a voice
a voice behind my closet door
a voice
telling me they are waiting for me
to join them in the darkness forevermore
andrew, andrew
come and play
in this land of make believe
andrew, andrew
won't you stay?
all your pain we could relieve.....
Twelve
twelve is such a funny number
i am twelve and full of wonder
i wonder where my kitty's gone
i wonder where my mommies gone
i wonder when she comes home
will she be alone?
mommy please don't turn the lights out
i'm so afraid
mommy, can i please lay next to you?
i'm so afraid
andrew, andrew
you know better
mommy has a friend who wants to stay
andrew, andrew
you know better
now be a big boy and go on your way.....
she never listens
she doesn't love me
no one loves me
The Voice II
in the darkness of the night
i'm awake but not with fright
the voice is saying something
something
something i like to hear
we love you andrew.....
Darkness And Nothing More
take
a step
take a step
closer to
take a step closer to
the closet
take a step closer to the closet
and open up the door
take a step closer to the closet and open up the door
darkness
darkness and nothing more.....
where are these voices coming from?
who are they and what do they want with me?
i hear them in the night
i've heard them all my life
but when i go to see
there is nothing but darkness looking back at me
andrew
they call to me
andrew
they know just what to say
andrew
come and play
tonight i will do it
i will go without fear
tonight i will do it
i will sleep inside my closet
so i can feel them come near
i know i can do it
i'm fourteen now
i can face this on my own.....
The Day Mommy Woke Up
"how long has he been like this ms. xxxxx?"
"i don't know, i just found him in the closet. he wouldn't even look at me. doctor, what's wrong with my son?"
"i don't know ms. xxxxx, right now it looks like some kind of catatonic state. does your son use any kind of drugs ms. xxxxx?"
"i don't know, he's always in his room, he comes home and goes to his room. he barely even says five words to me. please doctor, is he going to be ok?"
"right now, we just don't know"
Andrews Castle
i've left them
all alone now
let's see how they like it
to just be ignored
i have my new friends
i have my new family
here inside my closet
here we are
alone in my room
my castle
my tomb.....
but i am only small
nothing really to look at
nothing really important at all
but i am only seven
not yet able to decide
not yet able to think suicide
yet there hides in the dark
something scary
something tearing me apart
i want to scream for help
but i am only small
and my presence can't be felt
mommy
daddy
please remember me
mommy
daddy
please just notice me.....
Alone
alone in my room
alone in my room
my castle
my tomb
alone in my room
where will i be going?
not outside
no, no, not out there
with their screaming and fighting
drinking and crying
no, i won't go out there
alone in my room
alone in my room
my castle
my tomb
where will i be going?
in my mind i'll fly away
to a land of dreams and play
to a world where i am alive
to a world with color and laughter
where i make the rules.....
Andrews World
no rules
no rules
no parents to remind me
no parents to hide me
no rules
no rules
i can run, i can play
i can dream of things all day
i can laugh, i can yell
i can
what's that?
a nasty bug!
there are no nasty things in my world!
smash!
hey, that felt good.....
crush them
smash them
with my magnifying glass
i can watch their insides burn
stupid little bugs
look, see them run
now something is frightened by me
pull their wings
watch them scurry
watch them squirm
yes, something is afraid of me
hello kitty!
soft and playful, you are to me
you purr and crawl around for me
pretty kitty
you're so nice to me
i wonder
i wonder
i wonder pretty kitty
what makes you purr.....
Andrew Fights Back
why do they laugh at me?
the other children i see
they call me names
"hey, stupid!"
make fun of my clothes
"nice shoes, did they hand them out at the shelter?"
they push me down
and knock me around
it's just like being home.....
i can't take it any more!
i felt my hand curl and tighten
he's not so tough
soft and squishy
i can smash him too!
punch!
hey, that felt good.....
The Voice
lying in my bed asleep one night
something woke me with a fright
a voice behind my closet door
a voice
a voice calling me, but what i know not for
a voice
a voice behind my closet door
a voice
telling me they are waiting for me
to join them in the darkness forevermore
andrew, andrew
come and play
in this land of make believe
andrew, andrew
won't you stay?
all your pain we could relieve.....
Twelve
twelve is such a funny number
i am twelve and full of wonder
i wonder where my kitty's gone
i wonder where my mommies gone
i wonder when she comes home
will she be alone?
mommy please don't turn the lights out
i'm so afraid
mommy, can i please lay next to you?
i'm so afraid
andrew, andrew
you know better
mommy has a friend who wants to stay
andrew, andrew
you know better
now be a big boy and go on your way.....
she never listens
she doesn't love me
no one loves me
The Voice II
in the darkness of the night
i'm awake but not with fright
the voice is saying something
something
something i like to hear
we love you andrew.....
Darkness And Nothing More
take
a step
take a step
closer to
take a step closer to
the closet
take a step closer to the closet
and open up the door
take a step closer to the closet and open up the door
darkness
darkness and nothing more.....
where are these voices coming from?
who are they and what do they want with me?
i hear them in the night
i've heard them all my life
but when i go to see
there is nothing but darkness looking back at me
andrew
they call to me
andrew
they know just what to say
andrew
come and play
tonight i will do it
i will go without fear
tonight i will do it
i will sleep inside my closet
so i can feel them come near
i know i can do it
i'm fourteen now
i can face this on my own.....
The Day Mommy Woke Up
"how long has he been like this ms. xxxxx?"
"i don't know, i just found him in the closet. he wouldn't even look at me. doctor, what's wrong with my son?"
"i don't know ms. xxxxx, right now it looks like some kind of catatonic state. does your son use any kind of drugs ms. xxxxx?"
"i don't know, he's always in his room, he comes home and goes to his room. he barely even says five words to me. please doctor, is he going to be ok?"
"right now, we just don't know"
Andrews Castle
i've left them
all alone now
let's see how they like it
to just be ignored
i have my new friends
i have my new family
here inside my closet
here we are
alone in my room
my castle
my tomb.....
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