654-76-5591
is someone’s social security number
4751-8456-9512-0010
is someone’s visa number
(visa, it’s everywhere you want to be, and a few places you don’t want anyone to know about)
317-651-0966
is someone’s telephone number
not of anyone i know
just random numbers
like life
random
uncertain
ripe for the new fools of civilization to plunder
a mirror held up to my heart
a photo you once took
hey timmy, i’ve got someone for you to meet
his name is andrew
he don’t talk much
i was playing in the dirt one day
doing boy stuff
building roads
erecting buildings
dropping firecrackers from model airplanes
“bombing run complete”
“roger that, return to base”
and a shadow appeared
long and smooth
with well refined lines
she kissed me and ran home
“caution: initial reaction to drug may cause lifetime dependency”
27-8-32
was the combination to my locker freshman year
the only one who could remember it had huge breasts
then she somehow knew the combination to the locker next to mine
she then knew the number to a locker upstairs
me and the guy in the locker next to mine
took turns talking about those breasts
the rest of freshman year
506
was the street address of my first time
she felt like warm summer mist falling gently on my skin
she was so surprised to hear me say “i love you”
but not as surprised as i was, the words just slid out of my mouth
like a skier plummeting down the slop of an unforgiving mountain
or my heart the day the guy she left me for
told me he was going to be a daddy
4-17-90
was the day i got married
the day i thought my life was over
much too young we were then
but not as young as i feel today
or as old as i felt the nights i made you cry
but that’s behind us
like random misadventures in a forest of selfishness
i’m so glad you waited on me
7-5-05
is the day i’m writing this
and i don’t really know why
random voices i guess
like numbers in a lottery
wanting to be picked
we are all random acts of nothingness
just waiting to be something